Saturday, April 30, 2022

The Dilemma of Balance

Today's post is all excerpted from 
Waiting for a Miracle: Devotions for Those Who Are Physically Weak by Jan Markell


"Being ill is a full-time job without vacations or other fringe benefits. And it's a balancing act of the greatest magnitude! Balancing activity and anticipation with a daily routine of needed rest and quiet is not an easy assignment. 

Balance is also needed in interpersonal relationships. We wonder if we should keep our dilemma private, or speak too often about it and risk the flight of loved ones. Should we ask for help and risk being a burden, or should we maintain some independence which can bring on isolation and other problems? Should we push ourselves socially in the interest of our mental health, or should we play it safe and virtually vegetate, thus allowing rest therapy a better chance of bringing recovery from our affliction?

Keeping a good balance thus involves a "pick and choose" mind-set. We must keep ourselves maintained for that is our priority. Everything else must be assigned a lower priority and some things just have to be let go for a time. Letting go is one of the most difficult assignments, for it is not just the act of letting go, but embracing the mind-set of acceptance at the same time.

Living among healthy people who have no restrictions offers us overwhelming temptation to depart from a strict recovery program that includes a needed balance. Well people will want us to make commitments, which can be a double-edged sword. With commitment there is anticipation; however, there is also the dread of not being able to follow through with that commitment. Then anticipation turns to stress, stress to anxiety, and anxiety to even poorer health.

Even good stress needs balance. Good stress is an event or opportunity that involves fun, activity, and people we love. It involves fellowship, caring, sharing, and love. But it also may involve too many people, too much talking, and too much activity. Then we're back to square one.


To arrive at a proper level of balance amidst affliction takes the help of Holy Spirit discernment. At the start of each new day, we need to seek God's guidance for the hours before us. We don't want to squander them; rather, we should make every minute count, not just for God, but for our recovery process.

Finding balance in an unbalanced world with the complication of affliction can only be accomplished by surrendering our day to the will of God. He will redeem it and make it count, even if in our eyes it seems but a wasteland. God does all things well, and he specializes in turning ugliness into beauty and wastelands into gardens."


For Further Meditation

Be strong and take heart, all you who hope in the LORD (Psalm 31:24).

But now, LORD, what do I look for? My hope is in you (Ps. 39:7).

Why are you downcast, O my soul? Why so disturbed within me? Put your hope in God, for I will yet praise him, my Savior and my God (Ps. 42:5).

But as for me, I will always have hope; I will praise you more and more (Ps. 71:14).

You were wearied by all your ways, but you would not say, "It is hopeless." You found renewal of your strength, and so you did not faint (Isaiah 57:10).

Let us hold unswervingly to the hope we profess, for he who promised is faithful (Hebrews 10:23).




Posts with further excerpts from Jan Markell's book:

Delayed Response 

Acceptance and Celebrations

In Every Season

Waiting Tests Faith

Wednesday, April 27, 2022

Shut In – Day 70: After the Crisis

You know how a crisis usually brings with it a unique mindset and extra adrenaline to “get through it” – even for those who don’t know God’s gifts of strength for today and bright hope for tomorrow.*

But what about when the main crisis is past, and it hits you that life will never be the same? Whether dealing with the loss of a loved one or the loss of your health, strength, and abilities... moving on alone or living in years of “survival mode” can be harder to face than even the crisis itself.

Even while “Noah found favor in the eyes of the Lord” – he was still a man like us.



As we follow along on Noah’s journey this year, think a moment of how many different things you have done through the past month. How many different people have you interacted with? (For us that includes several more contractors and building suppliers we are lining up to repair and rebuild after mold remediation.)

But Noah has spent 30 days since the rain ended:
- shut in the ark
- with his same 7 family members
- knowing the earth and every living creature is buried deep in water
- taking care of all the animals

And he still has an unknown amount of time left to wait... for an unknown future.

How does one survive the “endless” waiting? By looking to the only true Hope available.

We wait in hope for the LORD;
He is our help and shield.
In Him our hearts rejoice,
for we trust in His holy name.
May Your unfailing love rest upon us, O LORD,
even as we put our hope in You.


• Psalm 33:20-22


Other posts in this series:
Part I: The Lord Shut Him In
Part II: Day 10: The Animals
Part III: Day 20: The Man Noah
Part IV: Day 30: The Walls
Part V: Day 40: What God Says... He Does


* line from Great is Thy Faithfulness by Thomas O. Chisholm, 1923

Saturday, April 23, 2022

Snow Mold and Stoplights

With a few more inches of new snow throughout this week - even my snow-loving family is very ready for it to warm up and let these allium get back to growing!

More than two weeks ago they were already sprouting nicely.

But there is one reason we still dread each thaw. They expose the snow-mold that just loves to spew its spores far and wide each spring.

Did you know that allergy symptoms can go far beyond itching and sneezing? For those of us with chronic illness (including Mast Cell Activation Syndrome = MCAS) they include increased whole-body pain, stiff and swollen joints, oozing ears, bloating & other digestive issues... and a worsening of all existing allergies and sensitivities.

Our allergy doctor uses the illustration of a stop light.


When seasonal/environmental allergies are higher, all other allergies get worse. So if a food is normally fine for you (green light), it may be forced into the "use-with-caution" zone (yellow light). And foods that are normally yellow-light may temporarily become red-light to "carefully avoid."

Just thought I'd share in case this tip can lighten anyone's symptoms at a rougher time of year.


Stoplight photo by Pawel Czerwinski on Unsplash

Thursday, April 21, 2022

Forcing a Bit of Spring

April 9th - Cut in lilac branches while Maren and kids were visiting. Sent some home for the little gardener to keep track of.


April 16th - Green leaves before a snowy Resurrection Sunday!

Sunday, April 17, 2022

To Him who sits on the throne...


Christ is Risen!!!

Read all about it in the Bible:

• Matthew 28
• Mark 16
• Luke 24
• John 20



[Just snapped these pictures for some memories of banners handmade by my family and friends before they found a new church home. They have always been a regal reminder of our risen Saviour and conquering King!]

Friday, April 8, 2022

In You Will I Trust

This album of Scripture Lullabies - Hidden In My Heart first became a good friend during another sleepless night. (Even though I recognize music after one hearing, it usually takes a few times through new songs to get past the "new acquaintance" stage for me.)  Now these cinematic orchestrations and Bible-based lyrics so beautifully help reset my mind on the truth during stressful and physically weak days.

Running a search just now on my blog, I am surprised not to find any mention of this series of albums before. Ever since I first heard of Jay Stocker's Scripture Lullabies (only 1 album back then) through the ministry of Revive Our Hearts and bought it to help Aunt Dorothy rest in the afternoons, they have been a big part of our life.

Besides blessing and calming us many days and nights at home, I played them through earbuds every time I was in the claustrophobic scanning machines for post-cancer checkups. We also give them to most new babies among our family and friends, as well as to hurting adult-friends. 

Check out the series here: Scripture-Lullabies.com


A favorite song from Volume IV which keeps playing through my mind and heart is based on Psalm 91:

In You Will I Trust
Listen Here

I will dwell in the secret place
Of the Most High God
I will abide under the shadow of the Almighty
Surely You will deliver me
You will make a way
With Your outstretched wings, Lord, You cover me
You will hold me close
Never let me go

I will say of the Lord You are my refuge
And my fortress
My God in You will I trust
In You will I trust

I will not fear the terror by night
Nor the arrow that flies by day
And when a thousand fall then ten thousand more
I’ll stand firm
You will give angels charge over me
Keep me in all my ways
They will lift me up, God You’ll hold me up
You’re my shield and strength
I won’t be afraid

No evil will befall me
The serpent has no power
I will set my love upon You
God You deliver, You will deliver me

I will say of the Lord You are my refuge
And my fortress
My God in You will I trust
In You will I trust

Monday, April 4, 2022

Recipe for those Sleepless Nights

Sleepless night?


Time for gently soothing, homegrown tea:

• 1 part Chamomile flowers
• 2 parts Lemon Balm leaves


Plus encouragement and truth...


His steadfast love endures forever • Psalm 118


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